I know it's crazy, but that's the only thing I'd really like to be. He continually fails classes yet is thought of as a "hot shot" by his English teacher, with an obvious flair for writing.
Does it have to do with his feelings on and past bad experiences with sexuality? This is half a century later. And it may be Phoebe who provokes his longing for stasis because he fears that she may be changed—perhaps at his own hand.
Also, the meeting with Carl Luce is considerably briefer in the story than in the novel. Holden believes that Ackley makes up elaborate lies about his sexual experience.
No one will ever see me again. Holden is seventeen in the novel, but appears not to have matured beyond thirteen, his age when Allie died.
If you really like a girl, he says, you wouldn't want to "do crumby stuff" to her 9.